Creative Despondency

This year has flown by so quickly, it's already July, and I have found that as the year has gone on I have slipped into a level of creative despondency ... my drive to take photos and make videos has taken a big hit over the last few months.

My biggest problem, mainly with my video work, is that I expect such a high standard from my work, but I am still learning, and have minimal experience to pull off the quality I set for myself, and then end up getting disappointed when I don't reach what I was aiming for. A knock on effect from this, is when I am travelling I will spend more time taking video over photos, and then get disappointed when I capture only a 'few' images and a lot of video that I am not happy. 

I know that this is a silly thing to get worked up over and that it's entirely my fault, but its been something thats been bugging me for some time and wasn't until my last trip back to South Africa (& coming back from said trip with out what I set out to come back with) that I began to work out why I have been feeling this way lately.

There are a number of things I need to change in the way I do things to get those creative juices flowing again, I need to stop making excuses for my 'lack of time' and just get out there to take photos, shoot video, work on these blog/vlog posts (I currently have around 20 draft blog/vlog posts in draft form that need to be finished), I have my Europe trip vlogs that need to be finish, I also have a series of different ideas that I want to flesh out and get off of the pages of my 'Ideas Book'. I really just need to learn to better time manage myself, & stop procrastinating, to get my incomplete projects finished, or I must just leave them as is and move on.

Anyway thats where my mind has been lately, enough of all this Despondency stuff. I have an upcoming boy's trip down south next weekend that I am planning to photo and video like crazy. I have been planning the kind of shots I want to get while on that trip, I will also be testing out the new Sony A9 which is being kindly lent to me for that weekend. I am looking forward to playing and potentially reviewing the camera. I also have my own upcoming wedding later this year that I'll be documenting, to a point, as I cant be behind the camera when saying "I do". So there are lots of exciting things coming up, with a few exciting opportunities on the horizon as well.

This is something small I have been working on lately that has turned out like I was hoping and has started to reignite that creative spark.

So with that all said and done, I must get back to some video editing.

I'll be back.